Blank stares and the Rain

Its been a year since I have written something about myself, I mean apart from the two wheeled ever lasting fascination and my eternal attraction towards India trotting. I surely have a life beyond this, or so do I think? So whats I have been upto?
This weekend was a pleasant break from the bum burning heat wave which swept Northern India, leaving almost a 100 people DEAD! Last weekend was a welcome respite with the rain gods providing that ever-so-rare smile on Delhi, ok..they kind of laughed out loud. The afternoon reminded me of my teenage years in erstwhile Calcutta ( I hate typing "Kolkata" suddenly), when I would just sit by the glass window in my room, stare outside as it pour relentlessly for hours with Floyd on!! I would do it for hours, every day, till the monsoon lasted and back in Kolkata it lasts for a good 6 months. I love rains.
But this weekend was not amongst the best weekends of my life. I realize my melancholiness as I had the time to introspect while it poured outside, with me sitting by the window..again! I am not upset with life, not mad at someone, not caring about the next Prez(as of now) but still I am sad. I cannot explain why I am though, but I guess I can come up with some reasons as I write this paragraph. Firstly, lets face it, I am alone, mentally! I am staying with a friend since this month and my new place rocks! Our common friends visit us over the weekends in numbers, time flies by..but I like I said, I feel as if I am alone. Secondly, interlinked with first oviously, I am not riding motorcycles as of now. My interest on Man's second best creation is still as much as ever, I dont even miss the 125cc class of the MotoGp rounds, but I myself have almost given up on riding. Why? I dont know! I even bunked out of the ride to Spiti valley, a place where I really wanted to ride to..but I opted out, I dont know, I just dont have it in me at the moment. Lastly and perhaps most importantly...ohh..a phone call I which I cant avoid..hang on!

Resuming where I left last night, yes, the most important reason for this feeling, "I NEED A BREAK." I know this is cliched and utterred by everybody and their uncle in every 5 minutes, but I am serious on it. I haven't been on a vacation leave since last October and I seriously need one, right NOW! I need a break from work, from Delhi, from family, from a few of my friends, from motorcycles, from rides, from travel club meets, from almost everybody and everything I know! I need sometime with myself, outside Delhi, in some mountain hamlet devoid of any tourists and I need the rains. Seldom do I seek isolation so desperately as I am seeking right now. By the way, it didnot rain in Delhi today!